don't wanna put off the Flame

Know your own pocket

2011-04-02T00:15:00.000-07:00

If u can't affort something, don't go for it.

Plus, don't burdent some other people just to fulfill your wants ( not your needs )

2011-03-31T02:52:00.000-07:00

andy warhol tak jadi..

hurmmm..

2011-03-16T01:33:00.000-07:00

It's hard when it comes to some people who just can be like nails on the chalkboard..

2011-02-08T17:49:00.000-08:00

hey what's going down...?
it's been a long time yet I still posting...
twitter has taken over me from blogging.
twitter.com/azheem2000
(^_-)v

hari raya 2009

2009-09-17T01:27:00.000-07:00

new artwork

2009-07-27T00:33:00.000-07:00

from left to right, ye eun, sunye, so hee, sun mi & yoo bin from wonder girls.

waterfall trip

2009-02-02T04:40:00.000-08:00

just look at the view, isn't it great? these pics show the way to the waterfall.

this place is called Batu Berangkai if i'm not mistaken, the water is crystal clear, cold and so many sexy stuff over there.

my very own CAR!

2009-01-22T21:36:00.000-08:00

just got it last christmas,
thank u, Grams...

perak darul ridzuan

2008-12-16T05:08:00.000-08:00

went back to perak recently and this tree belongs to my auntie's place. kinda cool uh?

i drank this young coconut water with lime, kinda interesting. i've never taste this kinda drink before.

this is where i got to drink the coconut drink.

langkap is a name of a town in perak. this is the market.

i believe this place is called tapah, also in perak.

maxis centre is everywhere, i love it.

this is tapah and teluk intan is where my grannma's place is.

the entrance of the multipurpose hall in tapah.

this is where my relative had their wedding feast.

look at that, what a crowd.

the bride & groom had their dish right at the front but they cant be seen, plus i dont even know which relative of mine is getting married. i just went there, eat, and go back home ;)

my friend took me to this place, he bought me this bread, huge one with loads of 'kaya' on top. really nice and sweet.

soccer any1?

2008-11-18T20:26:00.001-08:00

sketch the whole thing first, the lines

apply on the basic color

preety much like this when it's fully done

this is the edited with photoshop one.
kinda busted/kantoi on the face, especially the eyes,haha.
i'll do better on the next artwork.
if anyone can guess whos this athlete,haha u got very sharp observation.

art of the day

2008-11-04T03:15:00.000-08:00

this is my new beetle, very fresh, made out of pencil colour. i did this with that kind of medium just because it brings less mess and i wanna juggle my work with my spare time but who knew i might be using this as an additional image on my work at the office..
it looks cute and i like it very much.
i took 2 days to complete this artwork. i'll be continuing more with different subject matters or objects.

here, after i did some editing on photoshop. i have my artwork here as my wallpaper on my laptop. maybe at this time .. this is how i'm feeling .. like what can be seen on my artwork.

Elevator

2008-10-17T08:14:00.000-07:00

If we can stop fighting each other
Long enough for us to see that we are stronger together than separate
You gotta believe that
But I love you today, don't want you around tomorrow
Every time I change my mind, you follow caught up, all up in the maze and I'm so dizzy
Can't keep going back and forth on these waves, I'm getting sea sick

Like the way we were before
and I wanna know if we can go back to the days when we was close
Sometimes I think I'm so low
Think I don't want you no more
And I've gotta get up off this see-saw

Like an elevator, we go up, and we go down
We touch the sky and touch the ground
You're stuck on one while I'm pressing three
Then we end up on the fourth floor, and then we disagree
Then we keep on blaming each other
But I wish that you would see that I'm just trying to elevate you like an elevator

And I feel like we're speaking two different languages, it's hard to read you
But I know if you at least try to make it half way I swear that I'll meet you
But we can't have a conversation without beefing, yelling back and forth for no good reason
I won't let you leave and you keep asking me to stay
One of us better figure out what we want cause I'm getting a headache

I'll take the blame if it that'll make this go stop
I'll hold for you if we can make it to the top
But we gotta find a way to break down these walls "D"
I'm waiting on you, stop waiting on me
Damn this elevator!

balik kampong

2008-10-14T04:26:00.000-07:00

i think this is a blow fish..

this is the pasar/market of teluk intan

ada sayur..

these flowers look like lotus but they're not. do tell me what these are.

i dont have any idea what fruit are these..

kitten.... but not for sale, angkat jer kalau nak.. i dont know :P

the leaning clock tower of teluk intan..
i would love to come back if i'm free.
it's really nice to go back kampong sometimes.

raya 2008

2008-10-04T07:53:00.000-07:00

both rendang and lontong not really done yet but these two are my cravings since fasting.

this is my 2008 raya's outfit,nothing special,sederhana!
raya this year is quite satisfying!
puasa as usual,penuh tahun ni!raya definitely 'kemenangan'!

hari raya at kampong

2008-09-29T21:11:00.000-07:00

i've found old photos of me at kampong during raya.
the beetle was once belongs to my late Uncle Man.
i'll always be taken with where ever on the beetle everytime i go back to kampong.

i can't remember how old i was in this pic but mom said the cool t-shirt was given by Uncle Lee.

hehhehehhehe.... ugly baby ;P

chak!

little me with my cousin.

me and my sistas!

to all my muslim friends and family

2008-09-28T06:23:00.000-07:00

new hairstyle

2008-09-22T06:05:00.001-07:00

just had my hair cut today and this is the final result. i'm too scared of letting go the front side of my hair. at first i wanna chop off everything but ... this is what happened. this is for hari raya look. poyo as always, hahhahahahhah..

ugly face

fast breaking gift

2008-09-20T01:00:00.000-07:00

a client gave us this 'drink' over here, as a gift for fast breaking (i guess)

besides the 'drink', i got chocolates too, huhuhuhu... kinda romantic uh, don't you think so?

it says here.. the drink is 100% alcohol free, should i drink it? you tell..

too weaks

2008-09-14T02:21:00.000-07:00

it has been two weeks now.. fasting month.. i'm beginning to feel tired during the day..

26

2008-09-09T05:40:00.000-07:00

yeah, i'm 26 today.
thanks guys for all the wishes.
and thanks 'M' for the cake!

really know how to get on my nerves

2008-09-05T02:30:00.000-07:00

'S' wasn't ask me properly or tell me convincingly that 'S' likes me.
'S' has this playful personality and always looks happy like there's nothing to be bothered about.
when 'S' gives hints it sounds more like jokes.
how can i be able to give 'S' positive feedback when i'm really not sure/clear about it.
and how can 'S' tell me that 'S' has been ignored by me? (tepuk sebelah tangan)
'S' is really really *%#@*!
i really hate this kind of situation.
tell me clearly, what's up with all these hints?
all you guys know is to blame me for what had happened.
in the end, i will always be the one who got blamed of.
who cares where i went, what i did?
thanks alot to those who are hurting my emotions. i thought i would be relief by telling stuff that has been bothering me. you have just made it worst. thanks again.
i don't care anymore, i wont talk to those who've made me really pissed, i don't even care if its ramadan, raya, christmas, thanks giving, whatsoever!

for my muslim friends & family

2008-08-31T20:04:00.000-07:00

selamat berpuasa

penang

2008-08-31T06:58:00.000-07:00

i went to penang last two days. penang is just another busy city here in malaysia. just like kl with the traffic jams and all plus, penang has rapid penang as well.
that's the penang bridge, tiny view.
i don't know why i've decided to go penang. i went there without any interest in my heart. maybe i just need to clear my mind a bit i guess. but emm..

arrived in penang on friday. dont really know what to do, where to go. i've felt like i just wanna lay down the whole day. i've stayed at lessure cove, tanjung bungah.

here in the lift of leassure cove. i've just realized i've nice fingers.

the place is not so bad, my appartment is on the fifth floor. nice lah. what can i ask more?

there are two rooms, two bathrooms complete with the kitchen, hall, dining and all.
thats the bed, mirror and emm.. 'touch my body~'

at the back view of the appartment, the sea..

okay lah for sun bathing..

this is the tanjung bungah's dusk view..

theres a mamak restaurant with all the nasi kandar stuff down there somewhere. food.. ive found no problems of getting them.

this is island plaza. just an ordinary shopping place.

went to bukit jambul, in search of pickles and all.

komtar. okay lah. nice place but busy.

beside the peranginn mall where the carnival of merdeka's eve.

there was a concert for the merdeka's countdown. really enjoyed it. but the singers... i dont know..

penang bridge was under upgrading progress.

i do wanna visit loadsa other places in penang but i was just not in the mood. maybe some other time, i'll be back in penang and hope i wont be thinking much next time.
bye penang.

:P

2008-08-23T04:54:00.000-07:00

say whatever u wanna say.

a mind of its own

2008-08-08T18:43:00.000-07:00

I look at you and I know you're trouble
I should run just fast as I can
One smile, game over
Here in front of you I stand
I know you're only gonna burst my bubble
Trouble is my heart don't care
It's ignoring all the danger signs
Stop, Slow down, take a deep breath, beware

I'm not willing to be so fearless, careless, just yet
I'm not willing to be so open, transparent, no not yet
Once bitten, twice shy, is what you get

My hearts got a mind of it's own
Won't listen to a word I say
Cos When it breaks I break I don't know how much more of this I can take
Doesn't it know that I get hurt too
When it acts that way

Too many times I've witnessed
My heart make a fool of itself
So sure it's gonna turn out one way
Always turns out being somethin' else
My hearts got a real malfunction
Always flippin' into over ride
When I tell it to be sensible
It over rules my cynical mind

Stop, slow down, take a deep breath
Think about what I'm doin'
Think about once bitten, twice shy
Stop, slow down, take a second
Before you rush right in
It's gonna be my tears you cry

don't tell me

2008-08-02T09:52:00.000-07:00

on my 2nd tought, just don't tell me anything
it was just another stupid game i'm playing
friends? nah.. maybe not
you're just a person who i've known for a short while
i might lead you to a place that you would call hell
i'm not feeling anything
the spark is just gone now
i'm nothing to you as well
stop telling me that you're gonna be there and all
because i just don't need it
you know me & i know you, that's it
i'm not looking foward to anything when it comes to us
but, thanks anyway

tell me

2008-07-28T05:12:00.000-07:00

i didn't realized that u like me as well
what do i do?
i'm flattered
i kept pinching my cheak because it's like a dream
unbelievable
i'm overwhelmed
nobody knows how nervous i was all by myself
at least, u should like me by any chances
however, you've loved me
oops!
tell me one more time
tell me that u love me
tell me that you're waiting for me
tell me that u want me, need me right now
i wanna hear it repeatedly, please go on saying
telling me that it isn't an illusion right now
how can my heart beating like this
seems like it's gonna burst
i can't stop myself
whenever you're looking at me
i'm tingling like have been struck by electricity
i can't stop, so make me stop
hit me one time, baby one more time
okay i know you've already said it but again, i want u to tell me that over & over again
it's just like a dream, u know i can't believe it
oops!
now what should i do?
tell me one more time, baby!

serves me right

2008-07-24T05:15:00.000-07:00

there's no point of me forcing you to like me.
let it be, but at least thank you for making me feel like i'm loved, once again.
at least, i felt like someone has been taking care of me.
thanks for caring (used to).
i'm too greedy & selfish for asking you more.
i don't deserved it anyway.
i should be thankful that you're willing to befriend me.
it was all my fault of what entirely had happened.
i was slow, playing too many games, lying to myself, and it's non of your fault.
if i were brave enough, i would take my own life away.
it feels different now.
i don't even know what to do.
but deep down i really regret of what i did.
it's really not how we used to be.
no turning back, won't be the same.
i've to suffer the consiquences.
i'm hurting myself.
i gave up.

2008-05-23T19:12:00.000-07:00

why do you keep staring?
am i really that handsome?
even so, if you keep staring
i feel a little embarrassed

each time i pass by
the chicks turn their heads
the stares i feel from behind
what ever shall i do?

from the stares that i always have
and the babes that always checking me out
you'd think i'd get used to it by now
but why is it still so burdensome?

i wanna live a quiet life
like the other guys do
why did mom gave birth to me like this?
and make my life so tiring

everybodys watching me
everybodys wanting me
anywhere i go, the spotlight follows me
anywhere i go, they follow me
wether it be restaurant, street, cafe, the club
how much do they have to hear from me for my popularity to die down?
my sexy eyes are Go So Bright
my arms are sort of Go So Tough
what should i do? i think everybody likes me
oh no, please, leave me alone

i'll be there for you

2008-05-19T04:13:00.000-07:00

me and azrol are friends since high school.
last satuday 17th, his mom passed away.
but he didn't cry at all.
i know he's very sad deep down.
just wanna let you know bro, i'll always be there for you.
we're brothers forever!

langkawi

2008-05-16T08:52:00.000-07:00

this is the boat/ferry, heading to the island-no sea sick at all

this is the bridge right upfront where i stayed, perdana beach resort

this is at the top of the cabel car place, gunung apa i cant remember, cencang? cincang?

this is pantai cenang/chenang.. i dunno.. it was blazin hot.. nobodys swimming

langkawi airport- this reminds me of 'e'

under water world.... i love to see these birds

jelly fish?

i think this is a seahorse

the food here is very nice, cha kuay teow

rent this car, broke down twice!!!

the err... distinguish mark of the island

dataran lang!

mother's day

2008-05-11T04:10:00.000-07:00

happy mommy's day, mom

it's just weird

2008-04-28T05:16:00.000-07:00

today i was surprised, my friend Din shares me the same birth date.
it reminds me of 'E' & it took me a while to accept it.
i dont even know should i be happy about it or else?
i dont know about Din, does he happy about it or he just doesnt really care.
at first i hated it but now, i dont know how i'm feeling about it.
why do i have to think much about it anyway.
its just a birth date, rite?

its too late for this..

2008-04-27T05:14:00.000-07:00

Maybe i think i'm not right for you,
that i'll never be everything you need,
well I'll tell you straight from my heart, i am.

If i don't think that i've got the pedigree,
that i'm not someone who can talk to you,
well I'll tell you straight from my heart, i am.

You are, my reason
You are the air I'm breathing
Ask who's in my heart, you are

If ever I wanted to run away,
I'd go only if you would come with me,
Cause no-one can talk to my heart like you are :(

If I do for you what you do for me
If I'm on your mind every time you sleep, and in your dreams
Say the words and no matter how far I'll be where you are

I wish you'd ask me how I feel,
I'd say that I'm emphatic
And when you're near to me, this urgency is automatic
you're my addiction, 'A', and I dont wanna break the habit
I'd say that your in my heart

my mistake

2008-04-25T08:36:00.001-07:00

i havent got the chance to explain it to you but its just so hard for me to tell.
i did it twice but i didnt mean to.
the thing is i dont want any comitment, u dont believe me when i said i'm not ready for it or i'm taking a break from it.
the day when i first know you, i've already cried myself to sleep because my heart was beating fast.
my heart is still bleeding of what have happened, on my past experiences and i dont want it to be repeated again.
you're a nice person and i dont deserved you.
i'm sorry but i purposedly made you hate me so you can be with someone better.
i'm sorry but i just have to let you go.
maybe you're right, i'm giving up.
if you're hurting now, it would be okay because the longer you stay with me, the more you're going to get hurt, more than you are right now.
i'm not the one for you because i'm a jerk.
i dont even wanna try because i know it wont work.
there's nothing wrong with you, it's just me.
or maybe i'm just selfish but i dont want you to suffer.
besides, i'll only give you hard times.
i'm so sorry. i hate myself..

2008-04-22T05:39:00.000-07:00

i think ive hurt another soul
i dont know what i'm thinking
cant a friend just be friends?
maybe i just dont deserve any friend
sigh..

2008-04-16T06:00:00.000-07:00

love = pain
dedicated to all my broken-hearted people
i'm so sick of love songs
momento of ours... lie!

one late night & the rain is falling down
i bring you back from my memories
i've promised myself that i would be fine without you
but i cant help it
i took in liquor which i dont even know how to handle
trying to fill my empty heart
a day without you is too long
i pray that i might forget you (that's a lie)

without you, happiness cannot be found in me
i cant even shed any tears
i dont wanna live anymore
this is bullshit, its pissing me off
i'm going crazy in thoughts of you
i wanna see you but ive been told that i cant
that its all over (i'll be right there)

i'm so sorry but i love you, its all a lie
i didnt know but now i know that i need you
i'm so sorry but i love you, out of anger
i've pushed you away with those piercing words without realizing it
i'm so sorry but i love you, will you leave & forget me slowly?
so i can be in pain

those words ive said were all lies
a loner left behind all alone
& i lost in the midst of it all
in my pocket theres a break up letter all wrinkled & folded up

& my habit of calling for you & wondering where you are
i'm gonna change that
i'll laugh everything off from now on

i hope this is all a dream
because i only add up to this much
i still cant forget you
no, i dont think i ever will
even 'till the day i die
did the scars i gave you healed?
i'm sorry because i never got to do anything for you

i'm sorry but i love you
thats all i gotta say
look, everythings gonna be alright, isn't it?
damn, why am i crying?

wishing on a star

2008-04-14T00:07:00.000-07:00

how big is my dream?
i dont know if i will ever succeed but i really wanna give it a go.
although it's difficult i gotta believe it.
can i really fulfill it?
i'm really scared!
the path is fill with obstacles.
others might laugh at me but it's my dream that keeps me going forward.

how long will i have to wait for 'you' to come?
the tears, the stains & my breath, the many days we have spent together,
can it be subsisted?
in your strange gaze, it was as cold as ice,
sometimes i'm hesitating but i want to!
everytime, always defending the day,
there's a little dream, that's my dream.

wishing on a star, to those stars above the clouds,
promise me that it wont be long,
if someone could listen to me,
whoever sees my happiness is hanging.

sometimes i make mistakes,
like my mind, it isn't easy.

wanna be a star, to be in the sky like the other stars,
the daylight will shine from high above,
if someone would listen to my song, that's when i will sing.

i wont cry, gather the tears, now i will try to laugh,
the road i'm going through is not easy but i'll make my way,
i can do it,
someday my dream will come true.

emergency

2008-04-01T06:51:00.001-07:00

flood... was banjir today... my mom rang me and when i got home... there... water all over the place.. it was cold and i'm wet.

we were lucky because our car can still be on its wheels and got into the porch safely

it was not really bad... the banjir doesn't comes into the house..

for the first time in 25 years ... i'm experiencing banjir at my place..

p/s this is no april fool... this is real... haha

'you'

2008-03-29T10:33:00.000-07:00

today i've spent was the hardest day ever
try to paint a picture for you
before my eyes there were so many colors
just for today they all seem blue
here in my heart you'll be on my journey
where ever i go, whatever i do

we'll join our hands again someday
& trade kisses before night
talk of the times we had
we'll be together someday
& watch over the stars at night
laugh at the fun we had
it was our day

.....

2008-03-29T03:30:00.000-07:00

got my pay cheque already and i'm ready to spend... haha..

if any of you out there .. looking for a hair comercial ad model, do tell me.. it took me long hour to set my hair every morning.. no, i'm kidding...

gotta go get my hair cut.. sometimes my hair block my view... or should i let my hair grow more?

finally.... i got my own spot... i want it looks like a mini gallery... well that what boss told me.. haha..

but my phone doesn't work yet.

this is my pet chihuahua... a.k.a grimlock..

warning..!

2008-03-23T04:08:00.000-07:00

this 'thing' over here is very dangerous ya'll.. he's a carnivor, owh look at the teeth..

he barks... & just be extra careful whenever you're around him.............

hahahaahahahahah..

office is a place for work... not hunting, dude. anyways he's the coolest mad people you'll ever know!

and i would like to wish best of luck to this 'thing' over here on his something something tryouts.. go for it! i know u can do it dude.. keep your faith alive!

owh, i would like to thank my boss..... for buying me new desk. hahahahah i know this 'thing' over here is very envy of me, hahahahahahahah... i'm thinking of bringing my transformers to decorate my new desk..

what have i done?

2008-03-19T20:32:00.001-07:00

there's this 'A' who i think, likes me ... but i don't know wether does 'A' still like me or not, previously 'A' does..

recently out of a suddent, i told 'A' "i miss you"... owh my, is this a big mistake? i don't want 'A' to put hopes on me. ofcourse 'A' replied me "i miss you too". it's been a while i haven't told anyone with that sentence... like more than a year.. since i've lost 'E'.

i do really think that was a really big mistake but why i'm feeling good about it.. like i wanna hold 'A' so tight & don't wanna let go?

i've been feeling weird alot.. am i in love again? i hate this! i'm trying to move on but whenever it comes to 'A', i kept thinking of 'E'. sometimes 'A' reminds me of 'E'! owh i hate this much!

great weekend

2008-03-16T03:38:00.000-07:00

actually, one of my relatives got married this weekend and some others relatives hangout at my house, bring me loadsa food & stuff...

alot of people asked me, when will i going to get married ...tough one.. nobody wants me, hahahhahah...

anyways.. i'm kinda exited to have this korean song downloaded into my cellphone. so i can play the track over & over again..

work, is okay so far... but it doesn't stressing me out its just.. doin stuff i'm not used to ...

i drove uncle lee's car to the shop.. thats what i really enjoy to do... its like i can drive for days in 'that car'. whenever he's too lazy to go anywhere, he'll let me drive his car, haha.. wont miss that chance. i purposely took the long cut way to the shop, hehe.. but still consider about the petrol..

work

2008-03-12T07:23:00.000-07:00

this is what i'll be seeing everyday.... hehehhe not complaining... it's my job..

stress at work? you tell me..

sometimes.. i'm feeling like i wanna puke.. haha.. nah, i'm kidding

i'm so so sorry, "E"

2008-03-11T07:00:00.000-07:00

If I should die before I wake

It's 'cause you took my breath away

Losing you is like living in a world with no air

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave

My heart won't move, it's incomplete

Wish there was a way that I can make you understand

But how do you expect me

to live alone with just me

'Cause my world revolves around you

It's so hard for me to breathe

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air

Can't live, can't breathe with no air

It's how I feel whenever you ain't there

It's no air,

Got me out here in the water so deep

Tell me how you gonna be without me

If you ain't here, I just can't breathe

It's no air,

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew

Right off the ground to float to you

There's no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I'm still alive inside

You took my breath, but I survived

I don't know how, but I don't even care

this is for "A"

2008-03-11T04:23:00.000-07:00

in my heart i know that you're mine

but my mind keep changing all the time

it's so hard to find security

to bring love into our destiny

i know that you wouldn't tell me if i'm out of line

my inner sense is telling me

i've been running blind

when i'm close to you i'm in too deep

but without you i can't even sleep

i would give up almost anything

to feel love & all the joy it brings

i know that you're trying hard to see what i can't find

how i understand your pain

you've been left behind

i wanna love you,

& hold you through the night

i wanna love you,

make sure that you'll be alright

i wanna love you,

but nothing's coming out right

meet up back

2008-03-10T05:04:00.000-07:00

front: faisz the birthday guy

behind: silly looking azim a.k.a myself

this is my brother, haha... azrol, you're my best buddy!

(don't be jellous faisz)

yesterday.. it feels like ..i don't know how to describe it... it's like you've found your lost stuff once again... at last, we've finally get to have this faisz big day dinner ....2 months late.. "the best thing suddently happens when you're around" ... i wrote that on his card & i was surprised that he was kind of touched, wow.. but its true, everybody laughs at his jokes..

both of these guys are my biggest buddies, i've never told them this but ..they're the friends i love the MOST.. if they read this, they're gonna puke, hahahah!

the Poll

2008-03-08T07:29:00.000-08:00

this is where you should first go before you can vote.. check everything... bring your ic together & stuff...

queue....... sigh.............................................................................................. when will it's going to be my turn? nobody likes waiting right?

check that one out...... hahahhahahaha

where did my vote went to? you tell me..........................

actually... this would be my first...

so... mom told me everything what should i do & stuff,

like ... she told me everything when i first went to school.

its interesting looking at this kinda stuff.

2008-03-07T04:38:00.000-08:00

is this cool or what? i got inspired by this in my upcoming work.

actually, me and my team mate r on our effort in fulfilling our task today and would like to take some hour to complete it .. we were staying back at the office... i'm glad that i can help speed some stuff but unfortunately the power suddently went off... the whole building were shut down... we were pissed off by that and there's nothing more to do, so we head back home... were cursing too... lets see if i can lend a hand tomorrow.. gotta get stuff done in time..

this best friend of mine .. actually me and another best friend would like to go eat together with him for some kind of celebrating his birthday but he is always busy. hopefully we can still have time together, all three of us ... imagine, we're about to celebrate his belated birthday like 2 months late.. he's a big boss now... its hard to spend some time with him nowadays...

starting to taste some improvement

2008-03-06T06:03:00.000-08:00

i did this today (proudly).. ofcourse with the a.. little help from my team mate, the crazy prof.. this is actually called the 'denim scratch'.. it can be said that my most 'gempak' attempt on photoshop.. but still got some flaws.. on the stiching part eh.. at first i thought it's gonna be complicated and difficult but as soon as i got it / understand it.. this is how the finale came up.. i'm so greedy to learn more and more.. i'm hunger for knowledge.. i wanna do MORE!!! P/S I WOULD LIKE TO THANK MY TEAM MATE, you know who you are.. for this wonderful stuff over here, without you, i will never can do any such like this denim scratch. you got so many ideas in your head & it's great to hear all the ideas but one thing, don't be too complex eh.. sometimes it's hard to understand your ideas, they're all great. wish you will achive on what you're planning for.

this is gonna be another shopping mall. can't wait. actually, this on schedule construction side is just rite beside / infront of my office. just have to wait until it's completely done..

not bad for a first day

2008-03-05T04:20:00.000-08:00

this guy over here is my new team mate! learnt alot of stuf from him. he's full with thinking.. but today he got me burnt some calories.. looking foward to work with this guy in the upcoming days, hopefully we gain & trade each others knowledge.

when i first met this guy, i know, he's smart. he got alot of stuff going on and i would never be bored working with him. so much stuff we've talked about today but my concern is for this guy that he's like has the ability of empathy, haha.. he can know stuff by looking at the first glance. but he can be wrong, haha..

the art background from both of us make it easy to understand what he's saying. his words are different from others yet similar to my art fellas from uitm.

he reminds me of cat & hafiz, my friends from uitm. he's like the combination of both. i still got lot to learn from him. these first few days, he will show me stuff that i need to be familiar wth.

me & babe sms each other today, kinda coincidence, she's also starting to work with a new job today. she said she is still single.. aha?

going through new days

2008-03-04T01:28:00.000-08:00

tomorrow is something to start over.. i've been a little bit crashed down for a while.. kinda low before this because ive failed myself to something i don't wanna remember of. i don't really into this blog writing.. i used to write my journal with my own handwriting.. guess i'm getting lazy to write, so i just type..

there's something in my head that i can't let it out at the moment, and that is 'A'. i would like to say sorry to 'A'. guess i've pissed 'A' off. forgive me 'A'. you're a great person. you remind me of 'E'. i wanna put all my past behind me.. hopefully.. they kept coming back sometimes.

i really looking foward for tomorrow.. hopefully i will not disappoint my boss. he gave me this chance and i don't wanna blow it. i'll be learning alot and gain as much valueable experiences as possible .. hopefully.. to make me ready to rock this life that has been lowed for some time.

owh, i turned down 1 company today.. they asked me to give the answer for the agreement of joining their company but i have to pass this one. already called the company ... its just not that i don't love challenges.. but i have to be fair to myself.. if it's beyond my abilities, why should i surrender myself to the stuff that i know i'm going to fall.. it's like letting go of having my own car.. because they will give their stafs a company car.. nevermind.. i'm not really good at directions, probably gonna be lost somewhere in the middle of KL while driving.

I've been looking for the boy that I once knew

The boy with nothing to lose

Right before he met you

I've been telling him everything that I've learned since then

Never gonna make them

Same mistakes again

...and baby You know, and I know You held on, I let go

Now is the time to move on

Let tomorrow be a new day

I'll be running from the heartache

As the months turn into new years

Wont be crying any new tears

Hear me say no, never ever, I won't be there

...Looking back I remember when I

Used to sit and cry

Every day, all night

I'm telling you everything that you knew has changed

I'll be turning a new page

All the memories erased

I wont be having bad dreams

Wont be having regrets

Tearing at the seams

They're the things I will forget

Baby when tomorrow comes, you're gonna be the only one

If you'd loved, if you'd have cared

Then babe I would be there

tonight, out of the suddent, my ex rang my celly.. i didn't expect any call from my ex & we didn't even wish the 2008 new year to each other.. but why tonight? my ex said that my number is still being remembered, never been deleted & stuff.. were talking like nothing had happened, asking me wether i'm doin okay or not (still cares for me?) i was like not paying attention to what my ex were talking about.. just aha, yeah, ok. i didn't mad at my ex, it's just i don't wanna see any recaps on what we've had.. it's not unpleasent but just wanna look up ahead, not down or back.